OOoooooOOooo...MA! LAY! SIA!

Okay,
How do I begin...
I seriously dont know how to actually,
I seriously dont...
Why dont I let the picture the wonder?

Yah?

Shall we....


Okay but before that some introduction...
Me with my girls including the guardian for the day made our way to Bukit Jalil Stadium on 26 Dec 2010
For what you may ask?
Aiya, mestilah for AFF Suzuki Cup: 1st Final Leg


Actually the plan was a girls night out thing,
But booTak insist on being the guardian, well at least 2 hours before Ina's cousins reach the stadium
So off we go...


[ okay sebelum tu kita beli jersey mesia dulu k]


[inot macho gile jalan manakala saya berwajah ceria. MESIAAAA!]

Well notice all the indonesian supporters behind us? I was a bit cuak to be honest. Depa dok jerit INDONESIA, INDONESIA




[ yah laskar garuda ya]


Too many people I must say. Seriously. Never in my life i went to any match that at 5.45pm people has already flocked around the stadium. NEVER....everyone wit their Malaysian Jersey regardless original or ciplak. (well including me. hehehe) and with all sorts of fashion.




[ topi yang cool gitu]

While waiting for his friends to come, booTak was checking out the stadium trying to find good spot for him and his friends. We went early as Appu has already booked us perfect seats with great view. Thanks a lot appu!

[ checking out the area]

[camwhoring before the game starts]



Okay kita tgk gamba je la k

[ the girlssssss]

Since booTak cant find his friends (yah communication was really bad) and they arrived late, so he decided to just hang with us. Cool, the more the merrier!

The first half was intense. Malaysia team played well with Kuna as the midfielder. That guy was awesome. However, i think he might be little bit nervous because he did blew some good chances

The man of the match (well at least for the first half leg) were definitely Safee and Norshahrul Idlan. Timnas Garuda was clueless. Our homeboys were awesomeeee!

So after the big incident of Laser Menglaser (blah la markus, berlakon je lebih).

Okay pardon me,

I was emo that time with that Markus Menikus.

Pondan siut!

We managed to get our first goal with the brilliant help of Norshahrul Idlan. We were shocked but we jumped with joy. Look at booTak's face.


[ kembang kembang hidung]

Ouh I have video too.

Hhehehee

[gegak gempita keadaan di stadium after we scored the first goal]

And the night couldnt get any better. We scored the next 2 goals. Weeehoooooooooooo

[ 3-0 woooooo]




[ w00t w00t!!!]

The night ended perfectly. Well as you can see the timnas garudas' fan left early. hehheehe. but not much of chaos happened. I think they're pretty scared too. They were outnumbered big time.


We stayed for a little while for celebration

Well done Harimau Malaya!!!!!

Ouh, I have another video tooo

After last night's game, Malaysia won the cup with aggregate 4-2.

Well DONE!
Im proud to be Malaysian

Well lepas ni saya janji beli jersey ori k

Baby All I Want For Christmas is You....

So, Xmas is aorund the corner, not that I celebrated it but more to liking the idea of a day when your love ones crack their head to get you that special something as Xmas gift, the day where kids wake up extremely early and run over to the xmas tree to check out their present, and people standing around the piano and singing together (or is it only in movies?)

Nonetheless, I love festive season, regardless which one. After all, we are 1Malaysia kan?

Since xmas is nearby, I thought it would be a great idea to list down my wish list. Not that I wish for anyone to get me this. *hint hint*
Just that I think it is fun to at least have a 'wishlist'

The first stuff that I wish I have now is this....







A purple netbook that I can carry around almost everywhere without hassle. Hehehe. not that I dont like to use the internet via my bb but sometimes its too slow. *sigh* and the screen is too small. Since I dont have any plan to change to a better bb and I love my bb anyway, so perhaps getting a netbook would be an amazeballs idea right?






further more, its purple. Me likey....


Next stuff,
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source: google

a brand new running shoe. Newton to be exact. I have been using my adizero Mana and Ace for a year already and both my babies shown some rebel signs already. *sigh*
I need something that can fit my running style and what more can I ask than a new cool newton shoes.

or perhaps this...

Fleet feet running shoe. But they only have in States kan?



source: Google

isnt this amazeballss??? (okay I think I watched too much of Guiliana and Bill)
If you are a runner experiencing shin splints, foot pain or aching ankles, Fleet Feet is the best for you. Or at least to Guiliana then. Oh, did u know that she did the Chicago Rock n Roll Half Marathon? Hehehhe.

God, I have to stop watching G&B already


Okay, another stuff in line is this super cool baby!





source: Google


The Beartooth GTX's XTS system includes a forefoot plate that protects the foot from bruises caused by exposed roots and loose rocks, and its gusseted tongue helps keep out dirt and debris. Tackle the most hazardous trails confidently with Omni-grip outsole technology, built for maximum traction in challenging terrain







Oh me so likey.....

Or perhaps this one






ever since my last hiking trip in 2007 (Mount Kinabalu via Mersilau), I did not really have an adventourous hiking trip anymore. Nada....
And the last that I went for a mild hiking in Cameron Highlands makes me crave for me. I think I want to start hiking, camping in a serious terms again. So I probably need this baby right?
Columbia's tent has always been the best...like you cant even imagine how easy you can pasang memasang the parts. and its so light anyway.

Oh me so likey again....


Or



Perhaps this one



















but its too expensive lah kan?
Dont cha think so?


But rest assured I can tell you this,

I so wish I get to do this,
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the stupid loans that tied my financials to its core.
*sigh*

I wish I can be free from this stupid loan...
I believe tonnes of us feels the same way too....

Merry Xmas everyone


xoxo

Living up to the expectations

Have you ever feel that sometimes your life is all about living up to expectations? well not yours but others.

Is it bad if you feel such way?

Thats what I feel now. I feel that whatever I did, will never live up to people's expectations.
Theres always a 'but' in their sentences...

Person A: "I can give you this much but I expect you to work harder than ever. Prove to us that you deserve this"
Me: "Okay"

Person B: "I cannot be the only person to untangle your dainty emotions; you have to as well"
Me: *pregnant pause*

Person C: "This is lower than what I expected from you. I know maybe you think you've done your best but its not enough"
Me: *clueless*

These are just among the 3 incidents that occured this week. This is not an exhaustive list. As rightly pointed out by Person C where she's aware than I have done my best yet not enought, it makes me wonder can people ever be satisfied with whatever they have/received in their life?

I aint no angel, Im not perfect but at least I know im not stupid

Its tiring when you are living a life where you are not your own priority anymore, its others. I have once live a life where I care shitless for others. My only priority is my ownself and I was happy that time. Sounded selfish but at least I am not miserable.

Here when I am trying to make a change and to act for a greater good not just for me but also for people surrounds me, I failed. and boy i failed miserably.

I know life its not fair, I get it but somehow I feel fair is too subjective for us to even understand. Whats fair for me may not be fair for others; vice versa. I feel it is not fair if you blurt out whatever things that you believe, feel or even think only to realise that it is going to bite you back in the end. I'd rather keeping it to myself but this will bring no good to me as it will give an accumulative impact to my own feelings

So, who will you choose?

Your own self or others?

Greetings

Okay, maybe I am a little bit too late for this, nonetheless it is always appropriate to just wish it somehow.

As a Muslim, we celebrated our new year yesterday, yesterday marked the arrival of new year in our Islam Calendar.

Well, there is not much if celebration here in this land, as this country is no longer known as the country that embrace Islam as its main religion. Sad, because we are so nearby; us and them.
There's not even a public holiday but I figured muslims here dont really mind as some of them dont even realize it was Awal Muharram yesterday

I would like to draw your attention to some of interesting facts that I feel act as hindrance to the development of Islam here. Well at least development to serve the basis of living here....

Here, it is very expensive to obtain a 'halal-certificate' from its significant authority. Im not too sure why it is expensive but yah it happened. As rightly pointed out by my cousin who stays here with her PR certs, thats the reason why most restaurants especially hawker stall wish not to adhere to it and expand their market, as they thought it wont necessarily break even their cash register.

Secondly, most of the organisation here do not pay adequate attention to the needs of performing prayer. Eventhough muslim comprises of at least (safely say; maybe more) 20% of the communities here, there is no facilities such as surau especially at high end places as well as main attraction/places here.

Hence the reason I find it difficult to basically love this country. Well besides the extremely low crime rate which I like and the safety for women to basically wonder around at 12.00midnight without having any fear, I feel i cant survive in this country. or maybe I can. Haih we'll see.

Till then

Long overdue

*sigh*

It has been so long since I last wrote something here.
I even missed the chance to join the hype of 'wet race' report last 2 weeks.
Extremely busy even I dont have time for fb.
Ahahaa

Nonetheless, will write more soon, since I have some free time now.
Being away can only bring a blessing in disguise
:)

I've just landed and I miss home already
Boo-hoo

PBIM: Here we come...

Okay, how do I begin...
5 more days to PBIM,
Ermm not enough miles yet,
Lack of preparation and bla bla bla...
Yah some of you may have read the almost similar post written last year...
Hahaha...I guess that would pretty much sum up my kind of preparation when it comes to running the race..in particular Penang Bridge Marathon....

Its daunting...
everytime when I started my weekend run (either with booTak or Tottie), it would be the same
The first 15minutes would be breathing chaos drama,
The next 30minutes would be cramp
and the next 15 minutes would be sakit perut pulak...

I guess I will never be ready for any race
Its always be excuses one after another..
I have to put a stop on it

So....
Im going to PBIM with an open heart,
Im going with the thought to actually try and finish it
with good timing I really hope
Eventhough my one and only motivator will not be joining, (*sigh*)
But I guess life goes on...

So to all my friends, readers or whoever will be going to Penang for the PBIM, hope to see you guys around. To Kak Julin, REALLY HOPE to see you...

Good luck guys.

Well, before we go some good articles for us to read...

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This is amazing, he died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book ‘The last lecture” before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind …
In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan , and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.
May you be blessed by his insight.


POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE
by Randy Pausch

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

well, think about it guys....

Bon Bon Sai Sai

Its been a while...


Super busy nowadays, with tonnes of deliverables, tight datelines, exam, handling a thing or two in life. Tiring but heck, its life. So we gotta suck it in, breath again and move on.

So, super quality time includes spending times with super cool people and doing super cool stuff. Well actually it doesnt have to be super cool stuff, as long as it involves booTak, then its fine
:)

Hurm, okay...so we went to this Bonsai Carnival held at Jalan Rukun, Taman Bahagia, Jalan Klang Lama. It took us almost 45mins from Subang to reach this place since we dont have any GPS with us and boys being boys they never ask for directions.

Cliche

Neways, upon reaching I can already see peoples creating a queue to be in. Well suprisingly not only old people like bonsai, teenagers does too. Ahahaha...
Everybody brought with them their bonsai collection for competition and also for free viewing.
Hurm, i let the picture do the talking la k....

Silakan






* one fascinated guy with his camera

*"sniff sniff...how come no smell at all ni awak?" - pardon my bimbo moment

*this one is super awesome

* the row of bonsais

* the row of bonsais again...

*ouh i love this one. Red in color

* Selling price at Rm1000. CAN U IMAGINE?



Well, we didnt buy anything because it was too freakin expensive thou booTak would love to get one bonsai to bring home. and theres not much picture of other bonsai tree as well as the rain poured cats and dogs 30mins after we arrived. Poor thing, sian dia beriyer nak jenjalan lagi nengok pokok pokok dia.

If you ask me will you go to Bonsai Carnival again

Jawapan saya ialah....

YES, only if takde persembahan ular kat situ. Its scary. (alamak takde gambar persembahan ular)

I ran and it was painful

Sedih....

Yah thats how I felt this morning.

I had the usual morning run (well cant really say its usual anyway now since I have missed it for about 2 months already) with Tottie today...

and boy it was painful



You see, PBIM is around the corner, and I have not done anything besides booking the famous Eastin Hotel and Resort @ Tanjung Bungah for our accomodation.

Bersedia dari aspek penginapan je adalah tidak mencukupi kaedahnya kan?



So Ive decided to get the ball rolling, AGAIN...maka berlarilah kami seawal jam 6.20 pagi tu kan
For the first 10minutes I felt as if my muscle were burnt with no mercy.
Everything felt so tight and I felt as if it was tearing apart (drama sungguh)
I told myself "heh, nak half marathon kemendenyer lari 10minit dah sakit gini"
Looked at tottie in front of me running effortless as if she was having fun wasnt helping either

*sigh*



I have to do something
I must run
I must get my physical ability to be at its top position
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Tapi bagaimananya nak reach the above kalau vitamin 'M' adalah memenuhi diri

Haih



I need help

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Hen...Hen...Hen Partay!

I am all set for tonight
Well, mostly...
Bought one top, kumkum bindi and gelang lip lap lip lap with Shaz just now @ Madras Store Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman

Physically i'm not set ekceli.
Too tired with work and stuff, so to spice up my boring life and to get sexcited for tonight I have decided to give this boring blog some story to tell,
Not too sure whether you will be interested to read or not
Nonetheless, here goes

Tonight is Soraya's hen party
Well Hen-na party to be exact
No strippers involved
*sigh*
It will be fun if we have one tonight kan?

Checklist for the party:

• Venue - checked
• Bollywood songs - checked
• Shisha set from Bad - checked
• Attire - checked
• Indian food - checked
• Henna thingamagic - checked
• Strippers - rejected *double sigh*

Neways, will update more stories from the henna party soon


* yah my kumkum bindi is really cheap. hehehhe. RM3.90 sajork!

Lets Go KL - Nike City Run 10.10.10

Event : KL vs SG Nike City 10k Run
Date : 10.10.10 (Sunday)
Venue : KLCC Parking (Starting),
Route : All over KL including AKLEH
Pacer : Tottie and Yoes



Okay, so some of you must have heard earlier bout this challenge - meng-challenge between KL and SG on who run better. So today's the day. 10.10.10 to be exact. Cool date but not so cool run la I must say



You see, I have not been running since SCKLM2010. Ever since the race, I hangged my running shoe (well ekceli I put it for a quite good 4 month's rest) as well as my running attire. Reason being? Well, simple. Vitamin 'M' adalah memenuhi badan ini. Before this, I had cancelled at least 3 race namely MPSJ 10k Run, Newton Challenge and another one what race ntah lupa. So this time I really cant say no nemore.



*sigh*



booTak did not run today due to bad health condition. Well ekceli he was injured so he better not run at all la kan. So, he was the photographer for today, so called la until what incident. Haih...nantilah saya ceritakan.



Neways, parking KLCC nearby Binjai was the starting grid for the race. I would safely say around 6k people were there today. or maybe more. I wonder how many participants SG had for today. Hmmmmm



The race started at 7.15am. Exact! The only thing that I can conclude was theres too many kiddo around. or at least teenagers. So, u all know teenagers when they got little bit excited, they all run and sprint as if they only have 400m to go. Hehehe. Sampai yang terjatuh pun ada nyah. Mak tak reti nak komen eksited beno kome ni



Ran passed by Eden Village, Pavillion area, Bukit Bintang (apparently theres another race too. hooHa Fun Run), Jalan Sultan Ismail, KLCC, Renaissance kemudian moh ke AKLEH kaedahnya. Few KMs in AKLEH and then we were out back at Tabung Haji area and ran for 500km more to the finishing line. I think its better to sum up the race with points and LIKEY and ME NO LIKEY



Huh! (emo seketika)





LIKEY

• DJs that were stationed at almost every 3km. They managed to get the event hip hip and hooray


• Good traffic control. Pakcik polis menjalankan tugas dengan jayanya


• Event crew was helpful. And theres also enuff medic on the road. Or at least to my thinking la

ME NO LIKEY

• The concept of "100 Plus, drink and go". Apakahhhhh. People shared bottles as they were running out of paper cup at water station @KM6 and KM8


• The Malaysian attitude of "marilah melemparkan paper cup di merata tempat". Malaysian will always be Malaysian


• The over hyper exicted kids. Tolak menolak kengkonon mereka adalah laju and unstoppable. tak suka okie!


• The finisher award. alahaiiii..hooHa fun run pun ada medal okie

So, itulah sahaja cerita saya mengenai Nike City 10k Run. To be honest, I think SG kick out butt real hard. Theres not much participation thou. Perhaps due to the other race that seems more fun iaitu Fun Run.

Ouh ya, I clocked 1:18.46

Enjoy the picture.

* marilah stretching






* senyum melebar sebelum bermulanya larian tanpa mengetahui azab aftermath dek kerana tidak berlatih langsung sebelum race.






*berstretching lagi bersama tottie and yoes








* marilah melompat gembira



Ouh ya, lupa. Edan drop by to say hello. Hehehe. Highlights for the race. Akan tetapi terlupa untuk berfoto dek kerana terlalu terkesima. Beliau adalah pelari yang jaya!







* muka yang amarah kerana tiada photographer di finishing line

Ouh ya lagi sekali. Terlupa menceritakan kejadian booTak as photographer. Ada ke beliau tidak berada di finishing line kerana beliau agak kami akan tiba selepas 1jam setengah. Eish Eish eish....sungguh meng-underestimate saya dan jua tottie. Maka saya adalah emo seketika tadi



Wonder how the other run was? Awesome kah?

p/s: Pain ALL OVER ME BODY. *sigh*

Whoop, Whoop, Whooper! - RM1 okay

Received BBM chat from Farah Shukur

"BK Whooper for RM1 at KLCC, MVal, Sri Hartamas, OU for today. Just purchase carbonated drink"

Herm, sure or not ni. For all you know it is just another hoax from Burger King with little tiny disclaimer...

But me being me, the kiasu-ness in me especially when I read RM1.

RM1 okay!!!

Replied her,

"Babe, sure ke ni RM1. Lunch time je ke"

"No la, whole day"

Maka zaaasss, dengan sepantas kilat saya mengdrivekan kelisa silver saya ke tempat kejadian. Contemplating, perhaps I should go to Sri Hartamas then rather than ke KLCC itu. Nearer and sure takde orang (considering BK at Hartamas is more like a ghost town on a normal day)

Sekali....
Zasssssss (what's up with me and zaaaassss ni)
Manusia adalah memenuhi Burger King itu.
The q was like wwwooooowwwwwooooowwwwwwweeeeee!
Forgot to take picture! *sigh*

sungguh tidak dramatic blog ini




Yah, its true! Its not just a hoax. Cant really seems to figure out reasoning why BK wanted to do such thing. Probably their Whooper patties is expiring soon thus heck why not sell at cheaper price la. Us being Malaysian, whatever cheap or promo thing sure can sell one

The only catch was you have to purchase Carbonated Drinks (RM3.25) for every burger ordered. Well, since a customer is only allowed to purchase 3, maka saya pun zaaaaasss membeli 3. Not that I can eat 3 burger at one go, adalah tetapi lebih teruja dengan hakikat saya berjaya berjimat sebanyak RM8.65 bagi setiap whooper yang dibeli. Siap berkata kepada diri sendiri...

"Malam ni makan satu, sahur makan satu, esok after berbuka makan satu"

Ahahhhahaaa....




Ye, itulah whooper saya.
No wonder lately tgk tv asek nengok iklan beger sahaja
And when I watched "How I Met Your Mother' the other day also showed episode where Marshall searched his ultimate New York Burger

Yummy!
Whoopss! 2 whooper at a go means 1kg or probably more gain in weight

I googled Calory King website, for every burger you have to jog for about 77mins or 186 mins of walking. Maka untuk 2 burger dimakan semalam adalah perlu berjongging selama 2 jam setengah gamaknya maka adalah perlu berhalf marathon untuk membuang kalori itu

Wow...

Erm, takpelah malam ni saya makan lagi satu
Kali ni je k
Heheheheehehe

Hiburan kaki:

Beger apa yang gembira
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BEGERRRRRRRRRMBIRAAAAAA!!!!

Okay LAME!

Oh dengarlah, jeritan batinku...

Dengar
Oh! Jeritan batinku
Memekik-mekik
Memanggil-manggil
Namamu selalu
Sehari kurasa sebulan
Hatiku tiada tertahan
Ku pandang kiri
Ku pandang kanan
Di kau tiada...

Risau
Batinku menangis risau
Makin kau jauh
Makin hatiku bertambah kacau
Mengapa kita berpisah
Tak sanggup menahan asmara
Oh! Dengarlah
Jeritan batinku

P. Ramlee - Jeritan Batinku

It was beautiful!

The music arrangement made on this song was rather superb.

Safe to say that almost everyone were glued to their seat and sit still, no time to even blink and stare at their loved one besides them.

It was magical

Like what booTak said, "P.Ramlee would feel very proud"

I second that...

Okay, pardon me. I actually jumped straight to the first 30 minutes of Sheila Majid Showcase at Dewan Filharmonic Petronas. :)

Remember my earlier post on Sheila Majid's concert at DFP?

So it was on last weekend.

2 October 2010 to be specific

*us

She sang most of her famous song except Aku Cinta Padamu. *sigh*. Thats my favourite okie. The first one hour was mostly the slow songs taken from her album namely Ratu, Emosi and etc.

The second bit was awesome too. I personally love Warna, Dia, Kerinduan, Manusia and of course Jeritan Batinku. It was too beautiful until me and booTak dont even look at each other. we were focusing on the small little petite amazing women in front.

Yeah THATS MY SHEILA

A good singer, brilliant entertainer (she cracked jokes almost all the time. and people laughed okiay! even booTak. Okay thats tough okay to get him to actually laugh). The hall was full with mostly Petronas staff (since they received 10% discount. pffftt). Quite a good seat for us but yeh we paid fortune for it.

It was almost 2 hours (including 20 mins interval) show. The cheapest ticket was RM98 i think. Anyway, my biggest thank you to Soraya for informing bout the show.

*us


*me and Soraya



* the boys...



* booTak, me, Soraya and Zam with our normal pose



*us with so-called funny pose. NOT!

To those big corporate organization, kindly sponsor her for bigger concert/showcase.
Pls....

i'm back

Im back
from the land where people speak with melody
and where silk is famous only for tourist
i shall update soon
for now
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The way we grieve now...

I came across this article from yahoo reading this morning, (well ekceli booTak gave it to me)


Boarding a flight, Lisa Niemi pulled out her phone and texted "I love you” to her husband. It was a sentiment she'd often shared with her partner of 34 years, actor Patrick Swayze. And even though he'd lost his battle to pancreatic cancer a year ago this week, she wasn't ready to give it up. “Either somewhere out there he received [the message], or someone's going, 'Somebody loves me!' And you know what? I figured it was a win-win situation,” revealed Niemi in an interview with People Magazine.

“I have a client who never turned off her husband’s cell phone after he died. She takes comfort in calling his voice mail to hear him speak,” says Claire Bidwell Smith, M.A., L.P.C., a hospice and bereavement specialist. “Rituals and routines like that are actually healthy in confronting your emotions and can hold a person in a secure place for longer.”

Actress Michelle Williams echoed the sentiment in the months after Heath Ledger’s death. "I wish we had rituals about grief," she said in an interview with Vogue. "I wish it were still the Victorian times, and we could go from black to gray to mauve to pink, and have rings with hair in them.”

read more at Yahoo Reading

I echoed Michelle Williams in this. There is no unwritten rules/rituals about grief. Some take a south way to muddle through and some may go north. It is never a Yes or No situation or Do's and Dont's, and there is no fine line to distinguish the two. Inevitably some may cross the border and do something that community may perceive as Dont's but heck who are we to judge and say that ones shouldnt do the certain things as their way to grief. I once heard a story about a wife who never wash his husband clothes just to have this comfort of his smell when she needs it and her friends thought it was crazy. I cant blame her for being crazy, as being crazily in love with her husband led her to do such thing, and to me I thought its rather sweet and calming.

A lot of readings can be found today and this whole week about the brutal murder of Datuk Sosilawati. Yah, I know the whole country would want to be updated about whats going on with the case and the status of it. But has anyone ever wonder how does the family feels and coping with it? One that I can assure you is by having tonnes of reporter fencing their house's gates day and night to get the glimpse of the children and loaded reports on how the mother was brutally killed where 70% of it were merely assumptions and here say by some reporters will not help much on their mourning phases. I understand that is part of their job but we are human, we need some times to re-adjust and re-stabilise and adapt to the new situation.

*sigh*

We will never know when is our time to do such, nonetheless I believe we would much appreciate if we are allowed to take our own sweet time to let things go.
Part of the struggle comes from the fact that there's no time-line for the pain. Secret habits and rituals born out of loss can carry over for decades, even to the point where it becomes second nature.

I hope Malaysia would give the family their space and time to breath, for they sure are in need.

Eid Mubarak

Salam Aidilfitri,

Its 5th Syawal and I am now back to work, with sour feelings I must say. Office is still pretty much empty with only 3 members of my team are around. That explains the need to ber'blogging' as I am extremely bored right now. The working modd has yet to kick in.

This year's raya is deemed dull to me. With less relatives went back to kampung, coupled with terrible choices of Raya Shows on television, I would say its rather dreary. I just dont get it, who wants to watch cerita hantu during raya? *sigh*

and that also explain the less picture taken this time around. with my only reliance was my berihitam's camera, so I did not put high expectations on the quality as well as the quantity. Nonetheless, the pics

* my family with our latest addition, humairah



* my sister

More? errr thats about it actually. Hehhehe....

The raya mood failed to kick in me. It also took a downcast road with the recent stories on the murder of the late Datuk Sosilawati. Its heartbreaking to me, but I cant say the same about the feelings that the childrens have right now. It must be more than heartbreaking, one can only imagine.

The act was brutal and inhuman. Lets pray for her soul to safely rest in peace and my condolences to the family. Al-fatihah....

Let Go...

Hey, maybe the time
Just wasn't right to hang on
When are you gonna learn
Sometimes things turn instead of turn out

Hey, when are you gonna stand
Stop looking over your shoulder
Me, with a head full of words
And not one useful expression
Hey, let go

We, with holes in our hearts
Were whole at the start
Our story began
We film ourselves 'til the end
Try to suspend our lives in the dark

Hey, let go
Let go (will we be the ones to understand?)...

Wailin Jennys - Begin

Salam Aidilfitri

Aidilfitri is like 2 days away now.
That means Ramadhan is about to end :(

*sigh*
I am going to miss the feelings of performing terawih,
I am going to miss the feelings of walking back from terawih (I dont know maybe it is just me, I feel Muslims are stronger and united during terawih),
I am going to miss the 'kemerduan' of Masjid Wilayah's imams' voice,
I am going to miss the iftar session with friends and family,
and whole lots of other things.

By all these, not saying that I am not excited for Raya. I still do but maybe as you grow older the feelings are not that great anymore.
Besides, I have this feeling of I still have unaccomplished mission. Perhaps what we did during this Holy month are still not perfect yet (at least to me)

Speaking of raya, I still remember those time, those good old days when girls in my school were in this competition of whose getting the most kad raya.
Yah, that competition does exist. I am not sure about the status now as people are moving towards technology driven communication now
To me, kad raya still give one sort of sentimental feelings.
It does because people go extra miles for it. Getting the kad raya, buying the stamps, writing greetings on it. It has some sentimental touch to it that no sms or e-mail can give. Well, new addition, BBM that is.

Whenever I received kad raya those time with greetings "Pecah kaca pecah gelas, sudah baca harap balas", it gave a reaction to my face; means i have to burnt a hole in my thiny pocket to get more kad raya. You see, when you are still kids and teenagers, RM2 did give an impact. Yah. Well actually it still does up until now.

I love it even more when I received the kad raya with songs attached to it, and what gave you the bragging rights that time was when you received a gigantic fancy cards from super special someone (ye, saya sudah ada boyfriend masa darjah 5)

I am smiling still when I write this.

Well this year, I only received few card raya. Mostly from bankers (yah, they are sort of like obliged to send to us to maintain good repo. Hehehe. poor thing)
And when I see the pile of my unwritten card raya, it proves something that nowadays people just dont go extra miles anymore. (well maybe not for some avid runners like runningmom and doc.)

and to me this is another factor why I feel raya is not that great anymore. not the kad raya, but the sentimental value of it.

Nonetheless, I wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin
and yah I did not run at all during Ramadhan. Saya tidak layak digelar runner

Sheila Majid in Action!!!!

I am so excited!
Why? You may ask
Its because of this...
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DFP SHOWCASE
25 Years at the Top
Fri 1 & Sat 2 October 2010, 8.30pm

Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra
Kevin Field conductor
Sheila Majid vocals

Come and celebrate the silver jubilee of Malaysia's Queen of Jazz as she joins the MPO on a trip down Memory Lane. Enjoy again some of her greatest hits drawn from her seven timeless albums in what must surely be the Malaysian Jazz event of the Year!

read more at MPO website

I have been waiting for this since like forever
You see, I missed the chance to watch her perform as I was at Japan when she did her concert back in 2008. and when I was in Jakarta recently, she performed like a week after that.

Yah
Bummer

So, when I read at Soraya's facebook status about this, like hell im gonna miss it again
Thanks babe for the info and your help. Appreciate it...

I adore her. I dont really care what has been going out, the rumours, the scandal and what not around her. She is the best mirror for petite yet stylist, kind of lady. and yah shes shorter than me...so me likey

When I was little (now not so little), I was once called 'Sheila Majid' by most of my uncle. The guard at Murni Apartment in Uniten also gave me the same nickname. and so did my lecturer. I dont really see it. I guess its just the ke-pendek-kan yang menyamai. Hehehe

So to all Sheila Majid fans out there, grab this opportunity PRONTO!
As the tickets are selling fast like putu piring at pasar ramadhan
Tengssss

Raya Mullah

Yes!
You heard me right. Duit Raya. But this doesnt mean that I am giving away duit raya. Hehehe.. No No No...
Having the privillege of working at an organization which are involved in producing money, I guess I can contribute in some way. Again no duit raya for you readers but Im giving you the chance to change your duit raya with us.

How to do that?
Simple. Let me know the denomination and how much you would like to change.
Email me the details before 25 Aug 2010 and kindly prepare the money before the same date as well. I will email you the details of my account and such once confirmation received from your side.

Delivery method?
Errr, would prefer for you to come and collect at BNM. Thou I might entertain those who are living nearby the area (KL that is) and with amount less than RM1k. Hamba takut membawa duit raya yang byk.

Charges?
Nah...im doing this for free. Heard some stories from friends last year where they had to queue for about 30 mins just to change RM100 to RM1 denomination. Kesian...

So if you are interested, PM me at mclarenna@gmail.com

The 25km Newton Challenge BIB for grab

I am announcing this with a bitter heart.
Yah.

I am letting my bib for the above challenge where I am registered for the 25km Women Open Category up for grab.
Those who are interested to run the race however was a little late in registration can buy my bib instead.

Ouh yah, im selling it at RM40 only. The initial price is RM60 u know. See, almost 33.3% savings on your side (pardon the banker element in me)

Thou you can still register online now, however they have reached the 2000 runners limit and those who are registered after that will not get the Limited Edition of Newton Running Singlet.

In the pre-race goodie bag, you will get the 2Xu compression socks as well as the famous Newton running Singlet with 'S' size (or is it XS, shoosh I forgot)

Anyway, PM me at mclarenna@gmail.com if you are interested or let the news spread to all ur runner friends, girlfriends, cousin and what not.

and you...take me the way I am

If you were falling, then I would catch you
You need a light, I'd find a match

Cuz I love the way you say good morning
And you take me the way I am

If you are chilly, here take my sweater
Your head is aching; I'll make it better

Cuz I love the way you call me baby
And you take me the way I am

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair
Sew on patches to all you tear

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise
And you take me the way I am
You take me the way I am
You take me the way I am

The Way I Am - Ingrid Michealson

I love this song, and I love it even more because booTak gave it to me. Okay, feel free to vomit whatever you have indulged in during sahur when u read that. Its okay, I used to be one of them. Felt sick of people who expressed their feelings to their significant others on the net. Hehehehe...but then again you cant help yourself from doing so should the feeling is right. and yah, this feels right.

So, this is me spreading the love. Do give this song a try. Im sure you will like it.

Ramadhan al - Mubarak

Ramadhan is here again. Alhamdulillah...
Never would have imagined that time flies so fast...
I thought I just celebrated Eid like couple of months back
Little that I know that usually when time flies so fast, means we are living in ignorance
Ignorance on how we are just 'hamba Allah' in this world.
And we tend to forget our obligations towards Allah.

Thus, here lets do whatever we can to grab the opportunity to embrace Ramadhan again
and hopefully we will gain benefit from this month.

Speaking of embracing Ramadhan, doing good deeds are always recommended. Hence, here would like to inform you that Islamic Relief Malaysia is now having a Ramadhan campaign on to help the underprivilliged people, OKU and homeless. They seek contribution in terms of money so they can provide supplies of food that can be used for a month for this underprovilleged family. A pack contribution's cost is RM50. Well, to some of us thats like the cost of our dinner sometimes. Imagine how this can really help these people.

Payment via Internet Banking is also available. So, its easier. Check it out at www.irm.org.my

Hope you all will have a bless Ramadhan this year. To all my readers, Selamat Berpuasa dan maaf zahir batin jika ada salah dan silap.