The Capital C

Yes!

The Capital C stands for Chanel

I've been having a lot of orgasmic dream of having a Chanel bag to call my own. So I told myself, dream can only be true once you materialise it. However, this dream is not cheap. Generally we know how much Chanel cost but none would understand why it is worth it to have one

I recently read a blog post by purseblog.com on Top 10 reason why you need to own a Chanel Bag and I told myself, it does make sense. I did some imaginary calculation in my mind that I have been wasting too much money on other designer handbags that if I add up the number, I could easily own myself the Classip Flap.

I know people in their right mind would not agree with this calculation, because truth is that purchase of other designer bags should not happen in the first place. I have people surround me who always criticize me for every purchase that I made, I know its true what they say about bags are all the same but hey nothing is the same with Chanel.

Ever since I gave birth to Adam, I have yet to purchase anything big for myself. So I thought this could be the right time. My very own push gift to me

Now who is in concurrence raise your hand pls!

But I'm only human...

source: google

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart 
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds 
If that's what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

Christina Perri - Human

Difficult time

Breast-feeding and being an auditor working mom is one tough job. I was told that it is going to be difficult, but I totally underestimate the process. Juggling between the two exhaust me, sometimes I feel like giving up especially when I heard comments:

 

"Susu tak cukup, pam la lagi" (Not enough milk, pump more)

 

"Ha kalau susah, bagi la formula" (If its so difficult, just give formula milk)

 

"Asek meragam je dia, mesti nak melekat je la tu" (He's always fussy, he just want to latch all the time)

 

If you chose to a bf mom, you are in for a challening times. Not handling your baby but people's perception towards breastfeeding, how to handle people's lack of knowledge on breastfeeding, not to cry when you see your maid wasted 2 oz of your milk, your panic attack when you see your EBM is depleting, sleep deprivation and the most important thing to watch what you eat and drink

 

 

source: Google

 

Eversince I breastfeed my baby, my new breast best friend is milk, milk and milk. Not to forget almond, green vegetable, eggs, barley, oats and all sort of food that are labeled as 'milk booster'

But of course when you constantly eating and eating, you will gain some numbers in the weight department. There you go again, another stress on handling people's comment about your weight. I gave up on my 5th month, I simply dont care anymore what people say about how I look, and how I need to start dieting and bla bla bla

Whenever I feel down, I will look at Adam and remember I am giving him the best of what babies can get. I constantly say to myself, its okay, you can be slimmer later. The most important thing is Adam is healthy and growing up in the best way. You let go of your needs, and you put your son needs first

 

 

But when I read this today, I am crying inside

Drunk Mum Killed 2 month old baby via breastfeeding

How can you possibly do that to your child?

 

Its irresponsible! Period

 

I know that when u breastfeed, you saved a lot. No need of expensive formula milk, you dont need tonnes of bottle set to feed your baby and etc.

 

 

 

source: Google

 

 

But you just CANNOT be irresponsible towards what you eat ( I was once trying to puke back something that I ate that had trace of soy lecithin)

 

May Allah give me strength to do this the right way 

Love is when...

You know it is love when you drink milk 5 times per day just to ensure your body is producing enough supply of milk for your baby,

You know it is love when you shove those bananas even though you really hate them so you get enough magnesium in your body

You know it is love when you wake up at 4am in the morning just to do power pumping

You know it is love when you just suck it up when your baby chew your nipple as if it is some kind of toys

You know it is love when you pump your milk under the table in your audit room

It is amazing how much, how far you would go and do for your baby, and I will do this until I cant do it anymore. Adam, if you are reading this when you are old enough to have your own laptop and internet connection (mommy will not allow you to be on ipad, smartphone what not. hahhahahahh), do know that I will never regret all the pain that I have to go through because you my son, is the best thing that has ever happen to me and I'll bleed all blood for you. (but please dont stab me with knife)

Living up to the expectations

The above is very difficult to do...
#justsaying

Syomir Izwa RTW...

Still remember my wedding dress?

The most famous Syomir Izwa deisgned his own RTW for Eid this year

Being the biggest fan of his work (gah, Im still in love with my wedding dress!!!), and knowing how comfortable his designs are as well as how he is about quality of material.

Ive decided this year I must purchase his RTW

But the timing was not on my side,

After giving birth, I still have some pounds to shed off

Specifically in the tummy area, all mothers should know this

So, with heavy heart, I have to let go 2 designs that I really like...

Inang

The cutting is soooooo pretty and being me I like things that are geometrical. I dont really like things that are flowery. But once I see how short the top is, it is a BIG FAT NO

My tummy has no protection here

No no no

So, I only have these two...

Mayang

Teratai...

Guess which one I bought for Raya?

#adamkhaliff

Muhammad Adam Khaliff is already 3 months old now

How time flies

He is one healthy baby, and a happy one too

Me being the typical new mom, everything about him is adorable.

The way he smile, the way he giggled, the way he cry (well sometimes not so cute when he roaaarrrrr)

I am thankful that he is a happy baby and not choosy

He is still fully breastfeeding till now

I really really hope I can breastfeed him the longest possible

I love the bonding time that we have together

Some pictures of my little angel

When he was 2 weeks old, he was 2.9kg then

Adam at 3 months old. Happy, chubby with additional 2kg 

:)

Alhamdulillah