Say something...

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl


- A Great Big World - 

A lil' appreciation

So, you know the valentine's day is tomorrow. Not that I celebrated it, but it was fun seeing the guys in my office browsing the local delivery florist website for flowers arrangement to their love ones and it was a real fun giving them advice on what to get the girls (you girls have no idea how lucky you guys are, like seriously). When I asked them, "Did your girlfriend forced you to get her this?", their sincere answer was surprising to me. They did it because they want to not that they will be scold at if they don't. "Ala, nehmind la expensive, its nothing to compare to what she always give me". "Its just a small way to show I appreciate her, thats all"

*sigh*

Young love is beautiful. no?

So the key point here is appreciate. Appreciated, appreciation and all related words. Its a little things to do but very difficult to be executed. As simple as thank you is already a gesture of appreciation. You appreciate what the other party did for you be it shutting down the fan, bath your child or even to fold your clothes.

To me, to appreciate requires honesty and sincerity. Well, when you do stuff, you have to be sincere about it. Not because you expect someone else will say thank you to you, or keep quoting the good deeds u do over times.

In love, you need to appreciate too. Its not difficult. As simple as thanking your other half for everything that he/she does to you, to your children and to your extended family. I found this today when I was browsing my normal sites to cheer me up.

“Love is made up of three unconditional properties in equal measure:

1. Acceptance

2. Understanding

3. Appreciation

Remove any one of the three and the triangle falls apart.

Which, by the way, is something highly inadvisable. Think about it — do you really want to live in a world of only two dimensions?

So, for the love of a triangle, please keep love whole.” 

― Vera Nazarian, The Perpetual Calendar of Inspiration

Nice. Real nice quote

Adam Khaliff at 9 months

I am so in love with my son, cant you tell? my IG is now flooded with his and his only picture. I dont even have latest pic of myself nowadays. The power of son, I must tell you that

Anyway, Adam Khaliff is now 9 months old ++. He is one bubbly boy, loves loves loves to smile. He crawl like a bear and he always manage to make me smile when he smile while watching minions in Despicable Me. He is also an eater and it is always a joy feeding and preparing his food. He loves avocado, banana and he also loves pasta. His new favorite food now is Baby Bites biscuits and now the biscuit is our great knights when dining out. Hehehhehee

But somehow like a normal human being, I do feel slightly challenged with his clingy behavior especially at night. He wants only my boobs me and me only. I am literally like a human pacifier. But as time grow, Ive learned to realise that these sleepless night that I have is temporary and one fine day he will be able to sleep on his own and at that moment I will miss feeding him before bed

Haih....so emo

Mommy and Adam forever mwah mwahhh

It has been a while

It has been a while since I...

• went for a hair treatment
• Had one hour Pedicure and manicure
• Eat durian
• Had an uninterrupted sleep 
• Sleep more than 5 hours
• Buy clothes in XS size
• Buy pants in S size
• People compliment me for my fitness level and body figures
• People seek some running advice
• Had an adult conversation without my son's name included in it
• Wear high heels
• Purchase brand new handbag
• Eat and drink without having to worry on the impact of my milk production (seriously, drinking barley = pengsan)
• Rest well at home after work
• Watch movie in the cinema
• went for window shopping
• have fine dining experience
• watch TV with an actual sound 
• had a stress free vacation

#thisistemporaryihope #iamsleepdeprivedcantyoutell? #ilovemysonnomatterwhat #pleasedontjudgemeimjustanormalhumanbeing #ideservebettertreatment

The Capital C

Yes!

The Capital C stands for Chanel

I've been having a lot of orgasmic dream of having a Chanel bag to call my own. So I told myself, dream can only be true once you materialise it. However, this dream is not cheap. Generally we know how much Chanel cost but none would understand why it is worth it to have one

I recently read a blog post by purseblog.com on Top 10 reason why you need to own a Chanel Bag and I told myself, it does make sense. I did some imaginary calculation in my mind that I have been wasting too much money on other designer handbags that if I add up the number, I could easily own myself the Classip Flap.

I know people in their right mind would not agree with this calculation, because truth is that purchase of other designer bags should not happen in the first place. I have people surround me who always criticize me for every purchase that I made, I know its true what they say about bags are all the same but hey nothing is the same with Chanel.

Ever since I gave birth to Adam, I have yet to purchase anything big for myself. So I thought this could be the right time. My very own push gift to me

Now who is in concurrence raise your hand pls!

But I'm only human...

source: google

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart 
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds 
If that's what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

Christina Perri - Human

Difficult time

Breast-feeding and being an auditor working mom is one tough job. I was told that it is going to be difficult, but I totally underestimate the process. Juggling between the two exhaust me, sometimes I feel like giving up especially when I heard comments:

 

"Susu tak cukup, pam la lagi" (Not enough milk, pump more)

 

"Ha kalau susah, bagi la formula" (If its so difficult, just give formula milk)

 

"Asek meragam je dia, mesti nak melekat je la tu" (He's always fussy, he just want to latch all the time)

 

If you chose to a bf mom, you are in for a challening times. Not handling your baby but people's perception towards breastfeeding, how to handle people's lack of knowledge on breastfeeding, not to cry when you see your maid wasted 2 oz of your milk, your panic attack when you see your EBM is depleting, sleep deprivation and the most important thing to watch what you eat and drink

 

 

source: Google

 

Eversince I breastfeed my baby, my new breast best friend is milk, milk and milk. Not to forget almond, green vegetable, eggs, barley, oats and all sort of food that are labeled as 'milk booster'

But of course when you constantly eating and eating, you will gain some numbers in the weight department. There you go again, another stress on handling people's comment about your weight. I gave up on my 5th month, I simply dont care anymore what people say about how I look, and how I need to start dieting and bla bla bla

Whenever I feel down, I will look at Adam and remember I am giving him the best of what babies can get. I constantly say to myself, its okay, you can be slimmer later. The most important thing is Adam is healthy and growing up in the best way. You let go of your needs, and you put your son needs first

 

 

But when I read this today, I am crying inside

Drunk Mum Killed 2 month old baby via breastfeeding

How can you possibly do that to your child?

 

Its irresponsible! Period

 

I know that when u breastfeed, you saved a lot. No need of expensive formula milk, you dont need tonnes of bottle set to feed your baby and etc.

 

 

 

source: Google

 

 

But you just CANNOT be irresponsible towards what you eat ( I was once trying to puke back something that I ate that had trace of soy lecithin)

 

May Allah give me strength to do this the right way